Wednesday, August 17, 2011
So, I have been busy with my internship process, which is a requirement for my study, and preparing for my thesis writing, and preparing the film festival, and and and and.....writing my own book!
I don't know when I could finish them all. But, I do enjoying my internship moment with cool people who helps me to improve my writing and reporting skills. I owe them so much. =D Firstly, I wasn't really sure that I was about to get the job. I was really frustrated that they hadn't called me for a few weeks. When I got the call, OMG, I got burst out of happiness!!!
The thing is everyone is having their school holiday this month, but I get to go to work. Well, to me it's much better, rather than staying at home doing nothing. Although, I know I could do something else, like cooking, scrapbooking, or gardening...or watch DVDs and play video games?
Anyway, I wish there's more than 24 hours to run in a day. Maybe 36 hours could be more enough for a living multitasker like me. Or more? I can't stop doing this and that. Internship, event organizing, community service, preparing for thesis writing, and doing this subtitle translation which happens to be my latest side job. Too much cool stuff to do!
Lately, I just passed a moment where I got financial problem, stuck with how less time could be for doing almost everything, and state where I kinda miss something and having doubt of the path I've been taking. Regret it? Yes...a bit. Confuse? Very much. Yet, I'm still holding to what I've been believing. Wish me luck!
In this kind of situation, I feel like friendships are being complicated in a way. Like a friend who just shows up when he/she needs me and contact me just for asking silly question and a friend who demands too much. He/she can just be mad at me saying that I'm an ignorant friend coz I refuse to go out with him/her. That person knows my schedule or if he/she doesn't know, I try to explain (yet, that person would end up saying "whatever" as he/she thinks I just made it up).
Ok, lemme tell you...
Weekday I work 9-5, with 2 hours to get through. So, what time should i wake up? 5.30am. I take off from home to get a bus, at 6.30 and arrive at 8.30 or 9. I don't want to get late of course. To get home, at 5, if I get lucky, I might get the bus at 5.15 pm, if not, at 6pm. The bus is really rare I could say. What time do I get home? 7 or 8pm. After that, I need to catch up my dinner, shower, do my side job, and prepare for the next day. Of course, rest a bit. I might sleep late if I got to do the side job task and homework from my current work, like 12 or 1am. Worse happens...at 2 or 3am. It DOES happens. It CAN happen all weekday! NOTE THAT.
Weekends. I usually not that free. I still sleep late and get up early. I could visit 2 or 3 different places in a day---different job, different meeting. So different spot it is. What's even cooler? I might not even sleep or finishing the deadlines of my side job. Especially the deadline is in the middle of the weekday, which I can't make it on the last minute, I shouldn't as I got a main job to run. So, weekend it is.
Some friends can't even understand that. And forcing me to meet them although they really know that I need 'me time' or...sleep after doing so much work and leave me less than 30 hours to sleep per week. It's like they pay me for being their friends, so that they feel they have rights to be THAT demanding.
They know I'm in quite a misery, yet they don't place themselves as my friends by being supportive. Instead, they try to ruin everything. Like ruining my mood---they can show their disappointment of me not being a good (enough) friend for them, which happens to be a reverse psychology I'm very bad at countering it; unfriend-ing me on facebook.
Well, it's their loss. They aren't being good friends too. They don't even show their understanding and care for problem I'm facing. Why should I care? I just leave it. After a long moments I don't pay attention to their childish and selfish attitude, they would just end up showing again to me saying hi and asking non sense that tries to engage a conversation to get our friendship back. Who cares? I don't have time! I'm a not paid friend that you can get easily...
It's time to be...exclusive!
Back to writing!